Poetry Break: “Again The Little Lost Boy Who Suffered for 45 Years”

Again The Little Lost Boy Who Suffered for 45 Years

8 years old
somewhat oblivious to reality
pretending to be asleep
his brother and sister whispered
so as not wanting the little boy to hear
that his father was dying of bladder cancer
what were they trying to hide?
clueless to the damage of this exclusion

And so the father died
the family did not take him to the funeral
so the little boy never experienced finality and the only opportunity to say good-bye
hurt, anger and confusion surfaced perhaps after 40 years
leaving only the tool of self compassion
to truly understand such a grievous loss
what good would come of the continual pain
and thinking carefully over many days with self compassion in the main
somewhat magically it flowed for all those involved in this conspiracy
they had their reasons and their minds were clouded with “selfish grief”
although grief it was
so forgiveness again to this little boy was in order
in this way sometimes this is the only way to cross the border and enter the state of Neutrality
please don’t think of self compassion as a form of La La Land bullshit
why not listen to the little boy?
who like you too can be finally free